Wednesday, November 10, 2010

An excerpt from Susan Buck-Morss's essay, "Universal History"



A final image, a third rebus, is appropriate. Adam Smith...wrote that the work of slaves was dearer to their masters than that of freemen, and he condemned slavery as an intolerable obstacle to human progress. Yet he was fully aware of the enormous profits of the sugar plantations--particularly in Barbados and Saint-Domingue--despite the fact that all the work was done by slaves. Was it not, then, a case of disavowal that Smith's only weakness was consuming lumps of sugar? An eyewitness recalls:

'We shall never forget one particular evening when [Adam Smith] put an elderly maiden lady who presided at the tea-table to sore confusion by neglecting utterly her invitation to be seated, and walking round and round the circle, stopping ever and anon to steal a lump from the sugar basin, which the venerable spinster was at length constrained to place on her own knee, as the only method of securing it from his uneconomical depredations. His appearance mumping the eternal sugar was something indescribable.'


Wednesday, November 3, 2010

An elegy:



Anti-logic is not alogic,

we are certain


of nothing

outside
our own falsifications.

Thursday, September 23, 2010

---

I forgot about the wind here up until this morning when I was walking and thinking of you and the sun revealed itself in a compelling way to my eyes. It was orange and heavy with atmospheric dust and across the lake the snap-hooks fastened to the flagpole banged incessantly against the aluminum. They clanged (clung), they did, and their tautophony reminded me of tired thirsty kings in Tartarus who roll big rocks and can’t alleviate their thirst.


The rest of the day and every day all day I hear rattling bugs like birds dried to skeletons and sound boxes, and I remember how miraculously quiet it is in November when hearts stop and everything crystallizes. I choose to believe it's kind of God to kill his insects like he does with the cold-- freezing being one of the nicest ways to die.


Speaking of birds, I get bothered when I think about the way you called her your heron. The only bird I’ve ever been is Isis in 5th grade, when I made myself wings from bed sheets and glued feathers for a collaborative project on Egypt. Someone else’s mother did my makeup and made me a necklace out of felt and plastic jewels and I thought I was as beautiful as Cleopatra: the one with no hair on her knuckles.


The other sound I hear a lot is the generator across the street which is really just a big mechanical cricket on the college’s engineering building. There they teach my friend nathaniel that objects only work one way with one intended purpose, and they don’t work backward. You can’t push a rope, he tells me, and he pops his ear with the knuckle of his forefinger. I understand that it’s beside the point, but if you dipped the rope in water and froze it, I think you could push it.


Anyway, I hope you aren’t kept awake by the sound of insects more consistent than obsession. Last week I stayed up reading about Isis and her lover Osiris who was cut up in 14 pieces and thrown into the river. She spent along time trying to find him. I like to imagine her waist deep, sifting through reeds and silt beds, lunging at his pieces flowing further down the current.



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Monday, September 6, 2010

....


5 New, great words:
1. ratiocinate
2. sfumato
3. transom
4. internecine
5. apposite

4 Staple Foods
1. Sun Chips
2. Popcicles
3. Fruit Smoothies
4. Leftover Pizza

3 Annoyances:
1. Cicadas
2. Androcentrists who are ignorant and detached enough to call the oppression of women 'an unfortunate thing' (and link it to men not stepping up to their biblical, masculine role)
3. Ockham's Razor

2 Favorite Tragic Figures
1. John Proctor
2. Lady Jane Grey

1 Proclamation:
1. I'm no longer using microwaves. I'm scared of them.

Saturday, July 31, 2010

What is a Prijatel?


"What is a Prijatel, you might ask? Prijatel is the accumulation of all things sarcastic into a hodgepodge of sexiness "
-Nick Lyon.

Yep.

Friday, July 9, 2010

And like, colors, you know?

From John Olson's article "Strange Matter" in the The American Scholar...

Mass is not what it seems. This is because we inhabit a world of weight, density, texture, and tangibility. The realities produced by calculus and differential equations make no sense to us, literally. Our perceptions are keyed to specific sensations. Roughness, weightiness, smoothness, sharpness, dullness. Foods are sweet or bitter or a combination of the two. Some things are warm and dry, others cold and wet. We cannot conceive of a reality not immersed in such responses. Not without faith in numbers. Trajectories and orbital mechanics. Energy and force. Momentum and inertia. Some of these are available to our senses. We all know what velocity feels like. But when someone tells us that there is more space in an ingot of steel than there is steel, we balk at the truthfulness of such a statement. We might readily agree, based on what we have learned in science. But it still seems beyond the reach of imagining. Because if there is more space than steel in an ingot of steel, what does that say about us? Are we ghosts? Clouds of atoms? Symphonies of molecules? Waves of light and radiant heat? All improbable, all incredible revelations. But the fact remains: a three-ton ingot of steel is mostly space. If an atom were the size of a 14 story building, the nucleus would be a grain of salt in the middle of the seventh floor.
Two instances come to mind: Dr. Samuel Johnson dismissing George Berkeley's ideas of immaterialism with his famous "I refute Berkeley thus," and then kicking a rock; and Jack Kerouac's address to an audience at the Hunter College Playhouse on November 6, 1958, during a symposium titled "Is There a Beat Generation?" It was there that Keroauc said, "We should be wondering tonight, 'Is there a world?' But I could go and talk on 5, 10, 20 minutes about is there a world, because there is really no world, cause sometimes I'm walkin' on the ground and I see right through the ground. And there is no world. And you'll find out."
Kerouac and Berkeley were right. Johnson's rock was essentially a phantasmal, a cloud of subatomic particles. He was kicking a dream.


Tuesday, July 6, 2010

An excerpt from my assigned sixth-grade journal

If I could be any age I would be 21. I would be 21 because I would be able to drive, I would be an adult and I can live on my own.
The only downside of 21 is you are grown-up and so are your friends, so you might not get to see them as much as when you were a kid. Plus you have to make an important discision of what you want to be when you grow up. I want to be one of the following: singer/songwriter, author, actress, teacher, journalist, photographer, or acting coach. I COULD be all of those things, but not really. My friend Maureen wants to be a pharmisist. She wants to be Maureen the famous pharmisist. We always joke about it.
I want to be a singer/songwriter, or author. I want to create books or songs about racialisum, drugs, alchol, disease, and world peace. I think maybe people will listen to me, because I am famous. I think its a stupid reason for someone to listen. We should listen to everyone.
These subjects (prejudice, drugs, achol, disease, and world peace) are very important to me and then after I am famous, I'll create commercials so people will send money to a special organization for disease and cancer. Alchol is an important issue because of drunk driving. I want to do commercials about drunk driving to prevent people from driving drunk. Its almost impossible to prevent prejudice, but drugs I would give money to programs like DARE.
I think I like being a kid more then an adult, when you grow up you can't do a lot of fun things or anything. Yes, there is a downside to not being able to drive and having a bed time, and not being able to see rated R movies. But being grown up is worse. I would like to be my sisters age (19) because she told me when she is at college she can do almost anything she wants, but she must wake up really really early. I think its also KIND OF cool to be an adult because you can have kids and get married. I guess thats also kind of cool.

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Summer 2010: an update


1. Metaphysics: No.

2. Writing: No.

3. Reading: Yes.

4. Abscess: Yes.

5. Peanut Butter Banana Milkshake: Yes.

6. Vegan: No.

7. Radiolab: Yes.

8. The Yeah Yeah Yeah's "Hysteric" (Acoustic Version): Yes.


This isn't me.

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

For Those Who Live Alone

Almighty God, whose Son had nowhere to lay his head:

Grant that those who live alone may not be lonely in their

solitude, but that, following his steps, they may find

fulfillment in loving you and their neighbors; through Jesus

Christ our Lord. Amen


From the Book of Common Prayer

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Something Recent Enough

161 miles divided by 60 means 2 hours and 41 minutes until they reach Chicago, if they stay a steady 60. Ben has been averaging 72, but this all happened before they missed I-80, when the sunset had still offered reading light.

She tries to concentrate on the essay, but she's absent. She stares at the waist high fences along the highway; a thin line that separates rural and road. With the tufts of husk and trash woven in the wire she practices geomancy, privately. She dances with the white plastic bags that have snagged themselves on the barbs. She turns to Kate and asks what she thinks the fences are for. Kate says, 'Probably to keep coyotes out of the fields.'

It makes her think about when she was little, when her father joked about a mangled coyote lying in the highway margin. "Look, Jones," her father said to her "look at that dog sleeping on the side of the road." She most vividly remembers it's unshut mouth. Second to that she swears she remembers a flick of its tail, a slow inhale. It's unlikely; they wouldve been moving too fast to see those things, but still she keeps them there, in her memory.

She sticks her fingers in her ears and tries to go back to her reading:

"For everyone (besides the errors common to human nature in general) has a cave or den of his own, which retracts and discolors the light of nature; owing either to his own proper and peculiar nature or his education and conversation with others; or to the reading of books, and the authority of those whom he esteems and admires; or to the differences of impressions, accordingly as they take place in a mind preoccupied and predisposed or in a mind indifferent and settled; or the like. So that the spirit of man (according as it is meted out to different individuals) is in face a thing variable and full of perturbation, and governed as it were by chance. Whence it was well observed by Heraclitus that men look for sciences in their own lesser worlds, and not in the greater or common world."

She skips and underlines "The human understanding when it has once adopted an opinion (either as being the received opinion or as being agreeable to itself) draws all things else to support and agree with it."

When she looks up again, they are passing a big white truck. She smiles up to a hat and a pair of sunglasses. Her uncle is a trucker and though she doesnt see him very often, she sees the profession in his disposition. He is always roaming, always restless, prone to shutting himself up in his cartesian mental space. He never overstays his welcome: always tired. The trucker returns her gesture, giving a quick smirk before looking back to the road.

In the margin of her book she writes, "Similar to Aquinas- errors of judgment come when the intellect and the will are incongruent. (Intellect, uncorrupted, Will, corrupted)"

The white plastic bags reach toward the farmland. They long to drape themselves over neuronic power lines. They long to lay with one another on fresh earth, to explore this unfamiliar universe that is the rural. She turns to Kate and asks, "do you think maybe they put them up to protect the rabbits from the freeway? "

"The fences?"

She nods.

Kate laughs. "So they can be hit by the tractors?"

She chooses to believe the question isn’t rhetorical, but still, she does not answer it; she just waits for another mile marker. The truth is--and she knows it--she is too superstitious and stubborn. She can't stop believing that coyote really did move.

Saturday, April 3, 2010

Tardis


"Human beings are like the Tardis of Dr. Who. The Tardis is this small frame the size of a telephone box that the Doctor travels through space and time in, but when you open up the doors, it's got infinite proportions, all these rooms and chambers, and it goes on forever. That's a beautiful analogy of human subjectivity. This fragile frame that you could walk around opens up to an infinite inner world, the subjective world. And so, when somebody shows up and appears, they're also still to come. They're there in present, but there's so much of them still to learn, so much of them still to know, every person is like a universe. And when someone shows up, our desire is not satisfied, our desire is deepened, and we want to explore that relationship and explore that life. Hence marriage is a lifelong commitment to explore the universe that is the other person."
-Peter Rollins, $200 Conversions

Well, I like this.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

One of the better conversations about CS Lewis I've had.

From a while back...

Kimberly Jane Prijatel Dude, I am SO TIRED of CS Lewis arguments.

Micah Sergey
Micah Sergey 
why kim? he's obviously the best intellectual we've got in the whole 2000+ years of our tradition

Micah Sergey
Micah Sergey 
and he smoked a pipe. omg thats so cool!

Kimberly Jane Prijatel
Kimberly Jane Prijatel 
Yeah, but that pipe was more pipe-ish than a pipe of our world. It had pipe-like qualities, but even more pipe-y.

Micah Sergey
Micah Sergey 
the pipe was so pipey that the smoker feels that there must be some outside judge that determines 'pipeiness.' god exists, qed!

Kimberly Jane Prijatel
Kimberly Jane Prijatel 
Either he was a lunatic and thought he was smoking a pipe (while in reality it was merely a nice chunk of herring he got in the market), he was a liar, who boasted about a pipe to appear fashionable, or he really did smoke a pipe and he reigned over that pipey pipe in a way that demands all pipes to submit to him. Now, I don't think he was a lunatic, and I don't think he lied. Therefore, the only conclusion we can make is that he did in fact smoke a pipe and all pipes MUST allow him to smoke them.

Micah Sergey
Micah Sergey 
this made me smile

Kimberly Jane Prijatel
Kimberly Jane Prijatel 
nice cop out.

Micah Sergey
Micah Sergey 
did i tell you that i copped your mom out

Kimberly Jane Prijatel
Kimberly Jane Prijatel 
did you MERELY cop my mom out?

Micah Sergey
Micah Sergey 
no, i practiced a severe mercy

Kimberly Jane Prijatel
Kimberly Jane Prijatel 
Well even so, the result was a Great Divorce.

Jonathan Knowles
Jonathan Knowles 
wow, I love what happened here.

Monday, March 1, 2010

Breaking from Metaphysics midterm into something semi-creative/fun.


In Morton, Illinois this morning I ate my bread with strawberry freezer-jam. I climbed the ladder in the barn. I watched her drive away. I hugged an old friend. I thought of things I said not to. I peeled the cucumbers.


I learned freezer-jam is self-explanatory. That straw and hay are not the same. That she came back for her luggage. That he loves electric sheep. That things really are getting better. That these aren’t enough olives for a really good Albanian salad.


But the jam can’t be left out at room temperature. And the straw on the second floor gets slick. She said she needs to think for a while. His hair got so long. It’s foolish to infer. The cherry tomatoes are pre-washed.


So I store it in a Mason jar. I slid and fell into the bale of straw. They drove away together and missed dinner. He almost bought an organ. Think of the likelihood. The ratio of lemon juice to olive oil is 2:7.


This cold slush reminds me of summer smoothies. This straw smells heavenly. They’ll come back laughing, later. He's wearing a new sweater. Keep it out of sight. It's too cold to conclude; I'm missing the feta. ALSO, I LOVE DAN.



Sunday, February 14, 2010

More Gilead

"I really can't tell what's beautiful anymore. I passed two young fellows on the street the other day. I know who they are, they work at the garage. They're not churchgoing, either one of them, just decent rascally young fellows who have to be joking all the time, and there they were, propped up against the garage wall in the sunshine, lighting up their cigarettes. They're always so black with grease and so strong with gasoline I don't know why they don't catch fire themselves. They were passing remarks back and forth the way they do and laughing that wicked way they have. And it seemed beautiful to me. It is an amazing thing to watch people laugh, the way it sort of takes them over. Sometimes they really do struggle with it. I see that in church often enough So I wonder what it is and where it comes from, and I wonder what it expends out of your system, so that you have to do it till you're done, like crying in a way, I suppose, except that laughter is much more easily spent."- Marilynne Robinson

I love this book to pieces.

Monday, February 8, 2010

Because I love this picture...

This is the manifestation of Joy





Friday, January 22, 2010

'Marriage' by Gregory Corso: a poem I appreciate

Should I get married? Should I be good?
Astound the girl next door with my velvet suit and faustus hood?
Don't take her to movies but to cemeteries
tell all about werewolf bathtubs and forked clarinets
then desire her and kiss her and all the preliminaries
and she going just so far and I understanding why
not getting angry saying You must feel! It's beautiful to feel!
Instead take her in my arms lean against an old crooked tombstone
and woo her the entire night the constellations in the sky-

When she introduces me to her parents
back straightened, hair finally combed, strangled by a tie,
should I sit with my knees together on their 3rd degree sofa
and not ask Where's the bathroom?
How else to feel other than I am,
often thinking Flash Gordon soap-
O how terrible it must be for a young man
seated before a family and the family thinking
We never saw him before! He wants our Mary Lou!
After tea and homemade cookies they ask What do you do for a living?

Should I tell them? Would they like me then?
Say All right get married, we're losing a daughter
but we're gaining a son-
And should I then ask Where's the bathroom?

O God, and the wedding! All her family and her friends
and only a handful of mine all scroungy and bearded
just wait to get at the drinks and food-
And the priest! he looking at me as if I masturbated
asking me Do you take this woman for your lawful wedded wife?
And I trembling what to say say Pie Glue!
I kiss the bride all those corny men slapping me on the back
She's all yours, boy! Ha-ha-ha!
And in their eyes you could see some obscene honeymoon going on-
Then all that absurd rice and clanky cans and shoes
Niagara Falls! Hordes of us! Husbands! Wives! Flowers! Chocolates!
All streaming into cozy hotels
All going to do the same thing tonight
The indifferent clerk he knowing what was going to happen
The lobby zombies they knowing what
The whistling elevator man he knowing
Everybody knowing! I'd almost be inclined not to do anything!
Stay up all night! Stare that hotel clerk in the eye!
Screaming: I deny honeymoon! I deny honeymoon!
running rampant into those almost climactic suites
yelling Radio belly! Cat shovel!
O I'd live in Niagara forever! in a dark cave beneath the Falls
I'd sit there the Mad Honeymooner
devising ways to break marriages, a scourge of bigamy
a saint of divorce-

But I should get married I should be good
How nice it'd be to come home to her
and sit by the fireplace and she in the kitchen
aproned young and lovely wanting my baby
and so happy about me she burns the roast beef
and comes crying to me and I get up from my big papa chair
saying Christmas teeth! Radiant brains! Apple deaf!
God what a husband I'd make! Yes, I should get married!
So much to do! Like sneaking into Mr Jones' house late at night
and cover his golf clubs with 1920 Norwegian books
Like hanging a picture of Rimbaud on the lawnmower
like pasting Tannu Tuva postage stamps all over the picket fence
like when Mrs Kindhead comes to collect for the Community Chest
grab her and tell her There are unfavorable omens in the sky!
And when the mayor comes to get my vote tell him
When are you going to stop people killing whales!
And when the milkman comes leave him a note in the bottle
Penguin dust, bring me penguin dust, I want penguin dust-

Yes if I should get married and it's Connecticut and snow
and she gives birth to a child and I am sleepless, worn,
up for nights, head bowed against a quiet window, the past behind me,
finding myself in the most common of situations a trembling man
knowledged with responsibility not twig-smear nor Roman coin soup-
O what would that be like!
Surely I'd give it for a nipple a rubber Tacitus
For a rattle a bag of broken Bach records
Tack Della Francesca all over its crib
Sew the Greek alphabet on its bib
And build for its playpen a roofless Parthenon

No, I doubt I'd be that kind of father
Not rural not snow no quiet window
but hot smelly tight New York City
seven flights up, roaches and rats in the walls
a fat Reichian wife screeching over potatoes Get a job!
And five nose running brats in love with Batman
And the neighbors all toothless and dry haired
like those hag masses of the 18th century
all wanting to come in and watch TV
The landlord wants his rent
Grocery store Blue Cross Gas & Electric Knights of Columbus
impossible to lie back and dream Telephone snow, ghost parking-
No! I should not get married! I should never get married!
But-imagine if I were married to a beautiful sophisticated woman
tall and pale wearing an elegant black dress and long black gloves
holding a cigarette holder in one hand and a highball in the other
and we lived high up in a penthouse with a huge window
from which we could see all of New York and even farther on clearer days
No, can't imagine myself married to that pleasant prison dream-

O but what about love? I forget love
not that I am incapable of love
It's just that I see love as odd as wearing shoes-
I never wanted to marry a girl who was like my mother
And Ingrid Bergman was always impossible
And there's maybe a girl now but she's already married
And I don't like men and-
But there's got to be somebody!
Because what if I'm 60 years old and not married,
all alone in a furnished room with pee stains on my underwear
and everybody else is married! All the universe married but me!

Ah, yet well I know that were a woman possible as I am possible
then marriage would be possible-
Like SHE in her lonely alien gaud waiting her Egyptian lover
so i wait-bereft of 2,000 years and the bath of life.

Saturday, January 9, 2010

For the sake of updating my blog, here's a Kurt Vonnegut quote.

[When Vonnegut tells his wife he's going out to buy an envelope] Oh, she says, well, you're not a poor man. You know, why don't you go online and buy a hundred envelopes and put them in the closet? And so I pretend not to hear her. And go out to get an envelope because I'm going to have a hell of a good time in the process of buying one envelope. I meet a lot of people. And, see some great looking babes. And a fire engine goes by. And I give them the thumbs up. And, and ask a woman what kind of dog that is. And, and I don't know. The moral of the story is, is we're here on Earth to fart around. And, of course, the computers will do us out of that. And, what the computer people don't realize, or they don't care, is we're dancing animals. You know, we love to move around. And, we're not supposed to dance at all anymore.